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Dear Katriel, Only Jesus really would have chosen someone like me. I bet He was like "That attitude, bossy, impatient, self centred girl - THAT ONE! I choose her" I have lately learnt to be patient with myself - Celebrate my triumphs even more (Because they alert me to the my favorite part, which is Hope) Hope maketh not ashamed....Hope for a better tomorrow. Before recent adjustments; it was hard for me to reconcile Daddy Gods children to their behavior. I expected - Sometimes demanded really (Hence bossy maybe?), that at their being in His house (church), they should have perfected the art of being gods aka Children of the Most High. It wasn't so. It wasn't so because expecting another to change is a frustrating and unfair situation to one. It should never be done. it should not be condoned. We weren't called to it.  As a an Able Minister of the new testament; I am called to a couple of things - Acting like the Holy Ghost is ...

So yesterday, I went to church to pray. My Sweet friend, The Holy Spirit asked me to 'just Pray.' I can tend to be a sort of control freak; So 'just pray' doesnt do it for me. I would like to know what am I Praying about; who I am addressing my prayers to...you know? I would like to know who to Praise, or indeed question (lol), when the results come out. So I sort of started conjuring thoughts in my mind of what I should be praying about. And He kept asking me not to do that. So eventually, I got it!I said, lets have it your way. I left that tent feeling really soaked. It wasnt a feeling I could put a word name until today. I didnt get the whole gratification after prayer I usually would feel after such hours in His presence. I just felt like some blanket had been put around me in a way. I attended the service in the afternoon; and the Word became real as I listened. Same thing happened in the evening when we had the leaders meeting. I was there thinking; gosh, ...

Dear Katriel; I have a friend. A friend so dear, since we became friends, He has done nothing other than love me and love me. Is He my bestfriend? Seriously, I wish. I wish He was. I wish He could become ALL that I want and desire. Sometimes am sitted and thinking, How can you just love me so? Cause honestly, I know am an absolutely amazing person, but there are days, even I dont like me. And in such days, He just loves me even more and am aware of it. He is sent of Daddy God. He is My Now Jesus. When I say Jesus, I could mean, the Son of God who died for me and is in heaven; and I could also mean Him, My comforter, My friend.  I talk to Him daily. He is very humorous. He makes me start laughing in the middle of the road most times or when situations are really tough. He is also very deep; He sort of authored the bible, so He makes it easily understandable for me. For example, when I seriously didn't get fasting (And I think that was just my mind refusing to fast and,...