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Something about His Presence - EMOTIONAL BEA

Hello Katriel

So you know you how I was created in Gods image right?

Which basically means at most two things,

a. I do look like Him (you have to believe this even without admitting that my being pretty has no other explanation.)

b. I function like Him. Its amazing how humans automatically act like Daddy God naturally. Like how we naturally want companionship; how we want appreciation. Like, who taught us that? Like how we have emotions.

I am an EMOTIONAL person. 
I dont mean to be. I dont plan to be. I just am seriously emotional.

This means that I am going to cry when praying everytime Daddy God whispers to me. It means, I am going to be hurt and sometimes physically feel it when am around people suffering..It means, I can easily be hurt by what my close friends say. 
So you know, I cant end up being cool with all these emotions. And I want to be cool, no lie. So I will calm down on the crying, hold on to a smile when I feel like just gushing out in tears. It means I get to say something as cool as "ait, sharp" when i really feel like just hugging the other person.. I mean, its a daily struggle to be cool. And I am cool, seriously,lol.

And I am still reading Joyce Meyers " How to Manage Your Emotions - And not have your emotions Manage You" book. It makes me so Happy to have emotions!

And the other day, I just realised that most of my sessions in fellowship end in tears. Either, am bent, I need some fixing, or I am simply in awe of who He is.But basically, I just can give up holding on and let go In His Presence. In His Presence, I can be me. I can be the Emotional Bea. Wait, In His presence, I can Simply BE Me. He wont mind if I jump around in excitement, or I scream out loud out of frustration, or just Be. I can talk forever with Him and He wont mind (Ps. I can TALK), there is just so much about His Presence. Something about His Presence.

Lover of His Presence,
Bea*



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